Friday, I got not one but two job offers. This is somewhat of a new experience for me. By “somewhat new” I mean “completely unheard of”. And then it happened again…

I spent the rest of the day working out what the hell I wanted to do. On the one hand, it’s not my current job. This is a big plus. It’s working with Linux. Another plus. More hands-on. Plus again. In two years, I’ll be able to put 2 years commercial Linux experience on my CV. Actual promotion prospects. Muchos plussines.

But.

It’s in Livingston. Nothing wrong with Livingston per se, it’s just Far Away. Or, more accurately, Not Where I Am Now. So I’d either have to move (ugh), or commute (ugh). It seems that either way is going to cost Vast Sums Of Money, as Livingston costs more than Dundee, and I wouldn’t be making that much more than I am now. It actually may make sense to commute, cost-wise.

But the biggest block was Oh My God Everything Will Change. I really dislike my current job, but the thought of actually changing jobs really terrifies me. Moving away from my friends. Moving away from my flat.

Jus for extra fun, when I got to aforementioned job, I learned I’d got the Temporary Training position I’d applied for internally. Three months away from the job I’m not enjoying, doing training instead – which I really enjoy.

Decisions, decisions.

I spent the day with that running around my head, not really able to talk to people, because I just wasn’t sure what I wanted to do. Did I want to spend three months running training, then back to where I started, but basically keep the security and comfort of my current position? Or just jump into the unknown, and hope things will be better?

In the end, it came down to the email I had to send to the Training Department – Yea or Nay? I had to ask: “What makes me want to stay?” versus “What makes me want to go?” – these are not quite the same question. And eventually I realised it was this: the things keeping me here were comfort and inertia, and what was keeping me from going was fear of change and worries about money. And those seemed like pretty crap reasons not to take an opportunity.

So, as of the end of this month, I will be working for XCalibre Communications, doing, uh, stuff. I’m sure they’ll let me know when I get there…

So it’s a little scary, but I’m comitted now, which is good.

I’ll let you know how it turns out…

Oh, and by the way, best e.Bay auction ever. From Bigger Than Cheeses.